90 Days Came and Went

My 90 day challenge to earn $10,000 with internet marketing was a complete bust.  90 days came and went and I did NOTHING.  I did not create anything.  I was frozen in place and did not move.

It makes NO SENSE.  It is not logical, and it is not how I want to be remembered in life, but it is a fact.  NOTHING!!

How can that be?  The only thing I can come up with in the way of an explanation is depression.  I do not consider myself a depressed person. I do not have emotional problems  or mental problems and yet it could be depression is my problem.

Those who know me would think of me as a fairly level headed person with no major problems.  I drink only in moderation, one or two beers.  I bought beer yesterday and then did not drink any when I got home.  I have never done drugs.  I do not gamble or have other vices that might hold me back.  I do not even buy lottery tickets.

So, what is going on that in 90 days I cannot create products, webpages or any other activity?  Beats me?  I wish I had an answer. 

Possible Reasons: 1.  My rental home went up for sale when I started this challenge and that was upsetting. The owner had an open house so strangers could walk through my home, more stress.  I do not have the money to move if the house sells (first and last months rent and any deposits).  2. My father spent the last 13 years of his life calling me stupid.  Am I fulfilling his expectations of me?  If I succeed I disappoint him. If I fail I am exactly what he expected.  3. WHO CARES!  Reasons and excuses are plentiful for anyone.

What is the answer to overcoming situations in life that hold you back?  I am not sure. If I had the answer, I would solve my own problem. 

Since the 90 day challenge is over, I will stop posting to this blog regularly.